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melancholy

I have recently begun to notice something about myself.

Lately I find that I tend to drift off in some melancholic daze despite being in the company of my very, very happening and cool friends. We could be at the lunch table or hanging out in the lounge at college, I’d suddenly grow quiet and refrain from conversing.

Normally–and if you know me you’d know–I don’t slump into this sudden state of solitude unless something is bothering me.

For now, I can’t think of any pending dilemmas that would reduce me to being all moody.

Could it be just that I am turning 22 and I suddenly feel like life is whizzing by too fast?

Or could it be the sudden realization that the thing I’ve been trying so hard to hide is finally catching up with me?

Just a thought. Only a thought.